Over and Over Again

So mom went to the hospital again last night. I swear it's a never ending cycle with that woman. Every single month she has gone to the hospital for the past three months. I can't figure out what's wrong, it has to be her equilibrium is off still. Again from another fall at Target a little over a year ago. I'm scared that she's going to keep getting hurt and the next time I won't be there when it happens. I don't know what to do anymore, I hope she will get better soon. First, she falls off the bed trying to turn the light off. In the process hitting her shoulder and bruising her collarbone. She was on the couch for a week, then after that she was ok. For another two weeks at least, that's when she tripped over a chair and bruised her ribs. I mean REALLY!?! It's crazy! She couldn't breath and it scared the hell out of me. Then last night was just plain scary, she was in so much pain she couldn't even move without crying. I had to have the ambulance come pick her up and they put her on the flat board with a neckbrace and all. Every time they moved her she cried out in pain. I almost broke my nails, latching on to the hutch, squeezing a little tighter with every one of them. I just stood there freaking out not knowing what to do, but also knowing I shouldn't drive in that state. So I did what she said and stayed at the house and tried to watch TV. Though I can't even remember what I was watching, I just couldn't snap out of it. I felt totally stuck and about to have a panic attack, so I called my friend DJ who snapped me out of it pretty quickly. One five minute conversation later and I'm back and off to the hospital. X-Rays and one CT scan later and there's nothing. Literally after all that stress and panic, zilch. I don't get it, but if this doesn't stop soon, I don't know how much my heart can take.

Got That Big Sis Feeling

Today Carly finally let me take Allie shopping. Just Allie and I. I was so excited when she dropped us off at the Shops down on Flagler. But as Allie and I went in the first store all I could think was "I hope she's not disappointed today. I really want this day to be amazing for her." We went to Solcat, where we ran into the shopkeeper who remembered me from my previous shopping experience. Apparently she had been talking to her friend who was going to a hippie festival about my favorite white rose hippie headband. It was kinda cool that people who actually got to live in the 70's, liked the 70's twist I was going for with my outfit. She then pointed out the musical instruments to Allie and me. We had so much fun messing around with all the different instruments that I finally relaxed a bit. She was really into this xylophone, so seeing as it was the first store I told her we would come back and get it if that was what she really wanted. I continued bringing her around to the different stores. We hit up a few touristy, knickknack stores that really didn't have much kid's stuff. The next place we went into she found what she was looking for...A Giant Stuffed Shamoo. I was skeptical, so we asked the lady at the register to hold it for us. We went to the shell shop and then circled back and bought the Shamoo. It's funny how we always love the things that remind us of home the most. After that we headed over to the crystal shop that I really like to get some incense for me. We ended up finding a really pretty rose quartz crystal bracelet that she loved. I was so happy to have gotten her something more than a stuffed animal for her birthday. We decided to get a sharks tooth for Riley, because he lost one of his front teeth that morning. And as we waited for Carly to pick us up, I finally saw that I pulled it off. She had had fun on her First Belse Date! I wonder if this is how my sisters felt the first time they got to take me shopping. I was so happy that we went to a couple more shops and met Carly in the mess of Labor Day traffic, happy to see she brought Riley with her. We gave him his sharks tooth and cracked up when he didn't get it right away saying "It won't work, It's to big". I had an amazing day and it's just further proof that my nieces' and nephew really are more my little sisters' and brother. I'm so lucky to have them. <3 This is a day I will cherish forever.